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29 October 2008 @ 08:46 pm
prequel: he thinks he's normal, he thinks he's perfect. mainly he thinks he doesn't know anymore.  
Author: mariegina
Rating: NC-17
Warning : gory? maybe?
Summary : Tegoshi is not perfect. Who ever said idols were perfect? Tegoshi was anything but.

Someone had taken apart her body in the forest. Her eyes, tongue, ears, thumbs, organs- each was nailed to a tree.  

One tree had, from top to bottom: the left big toe, the upper lip, the nose, and the stomach. Another had other bits of her arranged like Christmas tree decorations.

The murder was soon the talk of the nation…


It was one of those days where everything went wrong and nothing went right. Your hair is ruined, your contact lenses goes missing. Even Tinny was ignoring you throughout the morning.

Taking a look at your watch, you dash into the building where the rest of the members were waiting. You are running late for a meeting and it would cost you if you were any later. As expected, sour faces greet your sight as you pushed open the door. You apologize profusely, hoping to make it up by smiling cutely. It doesn’t work.

“Tegoshi, did I not remind you that we had an important meeting with Johnny-san today? What is it with you and your inability to be on time, especially when you need it the most?” came Ryo-chan’s voice, accusing and gashing. Even Koyama's giving you the cold shoulder… You guessed that Johnny had something bad to announce. But you are not ready to hear it, not after the day you had.

“I’m sorry, okay? I’ll try to be on time next time.” You said as earnest as you could.
“Stop trying to act innocent, Tegoshi. You were in the wrong and you know it.”  Shige spoke with an upset tone.

That said, everyone leaves you in the middle of the room, anger and frustration festering in your guts. It isn’t fair. Nothing ever is nowadays.


The day continues with the same streak of bad luck, clothes getting mistaken, trains being missed and concert dates being cancelled. You leave the company with a bitter smile on your face and cutting remarks haunting your thoughts.

Stepping out of the train, you spot a bookstore in between the many clothing stores. It’s a new one. Out of curiosity, you take a tentative step into the store, walking towards the bookshelves. Rows and rows of books greet your eyes and for once in your life, you are glad to see them. For they do not judge you. 

Suddenly, something stops you in your tracks. It’s a book with black covers, the words GOTH printed in bold, white block letters. It catches your attention but you don’t know why. Your hand moves toward it, uncertain and shaking. Maybe you shouldn't. But what if you didn't? Hundreds of what-ifs cloud your vision, and then it happens-  you think you're hearing things, but then again, you have had an exhausting day. You hear your name again, and you stare at the book, trying to figure out what's happening. 
You grab it to your chest, deciding to buy it on a whim. Unknowing of the contents, but wanting it all the same. On that very same night, you dream of severed wrists and bloodied organs hanging on trees. You dream of a dog tearing out a man’s throat, his blood gushing out like a fountain. You dream of people being torn to pieces. You like it.
Cathy: Sausages and Humans have a lot in Commoncatslove17 on October 30th, 2008 08:23 am (UTC)
I love that you've branched out, into a genre that isn't commonly associated with JE, and with Tegoshi too, I mean I would've totally pegged Ryo as the secret rapists : P

I just love the last line, but you already know that don't you? You dream of people being torn to pieces, and you dream as if you are killing people.

I like that the two stories tie in with each other, and that gives it a type of background, however I still don't know how well horror suits JE, and although it's so much better than the norm, I don't know how well it blends and fits in.

But different points of view are always welcomed, and I think deep down inside we all have something that's scary, and threatening to come out.
Marieginamariegina on October 30th, 2008 08:51 am (UTC)
lol HOMG. poor ryo. i bet he's crying secretly XD

mm. two people requested for sequels. So Imma try to write one. Am totally NOT sure if I will post it though.

actually, i think horror doesn't suit JE cause well. JE is supposed to be light and fluffy? if not, think tegomassu lmao. BUT I SURE HOPE TO MAKE IT A NORM.
Kaori: Tegoshi punchshini_no_shisha on November 14th, 2008 12:03 am (UTC)
now I remember this ^^ I actually hadn't read it cause I don't like reading second person narrative ^^;;; call me picky but in my 3 years in literature in university this type never really was present and I ended up not liking it XD
but I still like the story ^^ I just like the way you wrote chapter 1 better :D
your sentenses are still beautiful though! I enjoy them a lot!
Sorry if I'm being picky ^^;;;; It's not you it's me xD But it does make more sense ^^ though now I'm wondering.... is Tegoshi a killer without knowing or is he simply having nightmares of being one because of the book? hehehe this is exciting!
Marieginamariegina on November 14th, 2008 03:51 am (UTC)
Oh, it's okay. We all have our likings =) and... that shall remain a mystery. xD Tegoshi's distorted brain haha
Through the eyes of a maiden: toma <333brown_cinnamon on January 8th, 2009 02:42 pm (UTC)
This is...
This pawn my heart already ♥
Thought he font is small and I have to copy paste it to words, but nvm

Freaky, creepy, whatever. Take it all, and let me continue to the next chapter...^^
Marieginamariegina on January 8th, 2009 04:51 pm (UTC)
♥ and for that you deserve cookies

toridaydreamar on May 4th, 2014 10:46 am (UTC)
I am not going to lie: your Randy Harrison icon brought me here.

Second confession: I love this thing. I need to continue reading it right away. WHY AM I SO LATE TO THIS.
Marieginamariegina on May 4th, 2014 04:19 pm (UTC)
Hahaha, well it is rare for a NEWS fan to have Randy Harrison as the icon?
I guess it's because my fanfics were usually read by friends and less promoted in news_jpop? I'm assuming that you found out there? o.o